Sunday, November 29, 2009
Release
I think I'm back to my blogging 'spirit' and I've decided to include one more reader into my blog . I'm not going to say names , but anw welcome you ! Hehe , I think my blog will truly reflect what kind of person I really am , so yeah just read on to find out more . I haven't been talking much lately at home and I hate it . Sometimes I question myself what's the true meaning of home . I'm not that ass-dumb to not realise how lucky I've been but its just this tingling feeling I mean like I know i'm lazy and messy but I'm trying my best ok maybe not v best but still trying to change . I'm not a saint , I do have flaws and all so pls give me time . So the thing is since ytd onwards my mum and I fought , its I think our first serious one becos she has not come towards me to talk to me first like what she has always done . I'm not talking to her too , simply becos I don't think I'm wrong and damn I hate to admit this but I want my so-called pride . She's being unreasonable here and I don't think I should give in . Also we had a mini argument just like just saying what she says she's v v v v v v v v ( she really did say very a lot of times ) sad that I'm like ____ for v's bday and I never ____ for anyone or her before . Damn v , I hope you read this soon and feel honoured ok seriously . I feel like crying now whenever she glared and stared at me as if i'm some kind of freak but I held my tears back as usual and quesioned her ' What else do you want from me ? ' Its hurting me so crazily becos she's my mum but I guess she still think I'm a kid who's just throwing tantrums . I'm just going to see how long this kind of situation and conversation would last .
Enough about my mother becos its runining my whole entire mood . I've joined danceeeeeeeeee today ! I need to apologise to maureen for being late becos of my mother again and I'm so glad to dance again . It was awesome , I was surprised to c some of my school mates there also hehehehe ! Anw ok I've to do up v's bday present ! Ps I'm trying to hit my own target of finishing new moon in 1 day's time !!!!!!!!!!! :> Wish me luck hehe
I thought it was over , but why does my heart still ache ?
One of those nights.
7:03 AM
