I'm so pissed at my phone , ok not my phone or rather its just me and my not so good ' technology ' skills . Sooner or later I'm going to take up some stupid course about all the electronic stuffs ok , this is so frustrating !!!!!!! Okanw , I went back home today for a while becos my red damn crocs were killing my feet . The pain was unbearable . On the way back , this old uncle stopped me halfway w his bike and ring the bell to mutter ' hello ' I was on plugs but I could hear , I freaked out but acted I couldn't listen to anything and I just walked away . It's freaky scary , there was the other time I remembered this old ah pek was smoking and he blow the damn thing on my face . It was damn stink , I swear . Ok I'm going to try to transfer all my pics from my phone and if I really can't do that I think I'm not going to try it anymore . Oki'm supposed to plan 2 essays per day and I think I'm going to upload it on my blog becos I don't know where else to put it , so yeah hehehe .
You said you would be my protector , you promised , you did .
ok I'm v pissed i'm going to come back to blog again cos right now i wanna murder my phone
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As Siti peered into the mirror , she saw a reflection of not only herself but her family portrait . Her facial muscles relaxed and a smile lingered on her face. She took a step forward and leaned her entire body onto the mirror. There she was , finally feeling at ease. She shut her eyes tightly as tears trickled down her cheeks uncontrollably. She thought to herself , if this was a dream , she swore she would never want to wake up.
Unlike the other youths , Siti was different. A 16-year-old teenager like Siti would have their own share of troubles , example how to earn extra money. Obviously , a young teen would also have their own desires , be it to visit many different countries in the world or to meet their favorite idols in person . However , Siti’s desires and obstacles were the same . She needed and wanted a home . Home is somewhere Siti would definitely feel at ease . To her , it was not a place where she would take shelter whenever she feels tired or having no where to go . Home is a place where she would finally be cared and loved .
It was 1st October again . Under my breath , I muttered ' Happy Birthday ' to the person who looked exactly like me in the photograph . My eyes blurred with tears as I clasped the faded photograph close to my heart. I knew it was impossible to wish him again , I knew if I could turn back time , I would exchange my life for him . Ever since I was 6 years old , I had been tormented by this awful day . I recalled everything which took place 10 years ago . It was one of those sunny morning when merely breathing seemed to be an even worth celebrating. The sun blazed merrily in the azure sky , sending rays of concentrated sunlight down to the Earth . It was our last birthday together .
As I charged towards the bedroom , I slammed the door as hard as I could , venting all of my frustrations and anger . My husband , Johnny would never understand , he would not . As I looked at Laila , my new born baby , tears streamed down uncontrollably from my eyes. I carried her from her cot and placed her safetly in my arms . I held her close to my chest and whispered gently to her to behave herself when she was with Mrs Lim , her new mother . At that point of time , Laila burst out crying suddenly . I gazed at her beautiful flawless face , touched her rosy cheeks with my index finger and admired the sparkling eyes she had inherited from Johnny . Without hesitation , I placed her back to into her cot . I did not know what came over me to readily agree to sell my child to Mrs Lim . I was not greedy for money , but I know this was the only way to save my feeble mother from the clutches of death .
Within a few minutes , I heard the doorbell ring . It rang a few more times which distracted my thoughts of predicting Laila's bright future with the Lims family . I knew this was it . It was time . I carried my daughter in my arms , as I knew it was going to be the last time . As I reached out for the door knob , I heard Johnny's footsteps. He seemed to be pacing up and down the living room. My heart wrenched when I thought of turning the door knob to the right , opening the door and what would meet my eyes would be my dearest's face contorted with intense anguish . I knew my heart would then shatter into a million pieces and perhaps I may not have the courage to allow Mrs Lim to carry Laila , away from me . After taking several deep breaths , I had convinced myself that I had already summoned all my courage and determination . I would open the door , avoid looking at Johnny's face and then place Laila safely on Mrs Lim's arms . Breathing in , I turned the door knob . In the next moment , I knew what Johnny was up to . He had locked me up and would not allow Mrs Lim into the house . I tried banging the door several times with all my might . I shouted for Johnny to open the door , I pleaded with him bitterly and said that I would explain everything to him if he did what he was told . He refused . At last , I knew what would resolve this entire situation. I had to be honest , to him . I explained the entire situation , about my ailing mother suffering in the hospital . I told him how rich the Lims were and how Laila's future would only be ruined by us if she continued to stay with us .
Finally , I heard the clinking sound of a bunch of keys . I heaved a sigh of relief . Unable to contain my emotions as I opened the door , I felt my eyes clouding over . Johnny's jaw seemed to be hanging while he staggered backwards . He knelt down in front of Laila and I , muttered under his breath that he was sorry for not be able to protect his daughter. I turned my head back as my heart seemed to be pierced through by an arrow. Immediately , I opened the door and passed my baby to Mrs Lim . Without looking back , I said a prayer for her .
Annie curled herself up on the stack of hay she lied on . Beads of perspiration were formed on her forehead as tears streamed down uncontrollably from her eyes. She was filled with mixed emotions . Emotions of anguish , anger , sadness and sympathy seemed to overcome her . As she wiped away the tears on her face , she began to wonder what was the meaning of life , what was the point of her existence . She shut her eyes as tight as possible , trying to remember to faces of Mama and Papa , she recalled all the sweet and happy moments they spend together and she missed them terribly . If only , if only she could trade anything and everything to see them again , she would .
