Friday, October 2, 2009
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I wanted to specially blogged this post for my clique but apparently I can't scan my yellow paper into the com . Screw the scanner , its spoiled . I'm reading ' A thousand splendid suns ' but somehow I think the kite runner is better , somehow . But anw thanks fay for lending it to me I'm alr halfway through I think I can finish it within 2 days . So today marks the end of schooling in stc , I don't feel as if its the last day and I've no idea why . Today we celebrated delores' bday w a small piece of chocolate cake but filled w a lot of our love in it . We sang ' happy birthday ' song to her softly and then we went on to do the activity , clique activity to be exact . I came to school mostly becos of this and part of it was to give delores her sunflower as my mum said it would be impolite to not give someone her present by myself . And so I did what she told me to do , to go to school listen to all those shit craps which I swear I don't want to listen and then really they don't even teach . But yeah I would go to school becos of the cliuque , everyone of them is so significant to me - they , are worth it . I'm pms-ing so my mood's really bad cos I hate it when I feel so tired when I just woke up from my deep sleep . I want more but I'm so lazy . And all I can do is to tell myself not to give up , continue this arduous journey even though it hurts , just do it for the sake of yrself and for the people who love you and have been supporting you in every way they could , and don't be a loser and let everyone down becos just don't be dauted and defeated by anything cos there are a million people waiting for you to fall and then laugh at you . And after that , I think all I've been saying its all my imagination . There's probably no such people , they probably have no such motives and you're probably ...
Tuition at ten tmr , followed by another tuition at 3 tmr . Followed by tuition at 10 on sunday . And from a very long time till the end of olevels , it has been studying me studying fatter studying food studying stoning studying reading studying watching the teevee studying grades studying competing studying defeated studying marks studying improvement studying effort studying crying studying stressed studying trying studying sick studying force studying studying studying studying
I've officially have no social life at all
And here it goes :
' Adrienna !!! It has been great knowing you . You're so nice ( but only sometimes HAHAHAHA ) and don't worry cause you ae so not fat man ! We've known each other for 4 years so I'm very very thankful becos you've been a great help in my life in various times and I ove you so much man . Frenz_4eva56. LOL !!! DUA PUI SAI 4 EVAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ! '
' Hi Adrienna ! Sorry you're not our gang leader anymore but it is fun having you around in school , class and during recess :D It's been great joy having you as a friend and I hope we'll keep in touch in time to come . Study hard for Os yeah !!! Lotsa luv !!! heartheartheart '
' Dear Adri , my exercis partner !! Thanks fo those wonderful times when we went to swim together , loved these moments ! Even though we'll be going separate ways after graduation , I will never forget you so I hope we keep in touch okay ? I love you : ) Love , the cute one . '
' Hi Adienna , even though we are not very close I wanted to say thanks fo bringing laughte into our lives . You're super hardworking so I'm sure you'll do well . Never give up and good luck for everything you do !! :) '
' Dear adrienna siew wei ying , you're the best forever ! hah , its fun to have you around so I can disturb you and complain to teachers about your bad behaviour . You're the second funniest next to stacy , so keep up the good work ! friendz_forever56 :) '
' ADRIENNA we have been through both good and bad times tgt and our frienship has been put to the test . But I'm really glad we've been through all that . You're the closet thing I've to a best friend so I really treasure out friendship and I want it to last forever and ever until we get married and have grandchildren ! Love you always , hearts '
' Dear Dps , thanks for always being there for me always. Pls remember me forever , remember that you were the one who did my Art , the one who cried over my unhappiness , the one who gets pinched and abused by me etc . Oh ++ we were the two rebellious one of sec 2C 2004 ! HAHA , and you'll always be MY DPS heartheart '
By typing each and every single word into this blog post , I'm touched . I'm going to reply every single of them , so here goes again :
' Hi you , thanks for saying I'm not fat . But right now I seriously think I'm as fat as a goddamn pig but its ok hehe . I'm also v thankful to have a friend like you becos you're v thoughtful towards everyone in which yknow . I promise I will be yr chinese walking dictionary and help you along in chinese if you need any help. But I'm really grateful and love you too '
' Hi you , I'm the gang leader of perfect ten always . Omg perfect ten sounds lousy ok but whatever . I love the times spending w you it was so great becos you're always so funny , cheerful and never fail to bring a smile on my face when you speak like a dude and twitch yr face w the addition of some sound effects . I love going shopping w you , eating and doing anything else w you . Thanks for accepting me for who I really am and always forgiving me of my mistakes and my flaws . During this two years has been a really great opportunity to get to know you even more . Love you so much '
' Hi you , I'm very happy if you are able to swim w me cos I love swimming ! And also , I feel very comfortable whenever I am with you and that's unexplainable . I think you just have a Idk sense of idk what kind of sense also but whenever i'm w you I think I'm not so concern about my physical appearance which means I will feel very relaxed and peaceful . I will not forget all those times we spent in the pool , talking over the phone about stupid and lame stuffs and laughing out loud becos of dumb stuffs too . I'm always v delighted to talk to you becos you're so nice and Idk it just feels nice whenever there's you around . So I thank you for that and I love you always '
' Hi you , I know you definitely would not see this but although I think there seemed to be really a big disparity in our character , it is still great knowing you . I've never thought myself to be v hadworking as I have always considered it as the stupidest way of studying and that's only for stupid people like me . Yes , I will not give up and I will work hard towards it , once i'm done w my book hehe ! '
' Hi you , I like you best cos you're my neighbour and even though now you're not going to be , I will still continue to be your friend I promise . I'm the funniest ok so kick stacy out cos she's not and will you stop making fun of me mocking me and all cos I will take my revenge . Remember Queensway , wah embarrassed leh someone blushing ~~~~~~~ hehe so watch out '
' Hi you , thanks for being so sweet telling me that I'm the closet thing you have to a best friend . It really touched me when you say that becos at some times I really feel like killing you when you appear to be nonchalent about things like phoning you and all . The no. 1 most hated sentence from you is : Sorry , I don't call people . People call me . I know you probably think you sound real cool but sorry to say , no hehe . But ok becos of that sentence , I am willing to call you . Yes , I admit that our friendship has gone through a lot of hardships . Its amazing that we are still close to each other . Maybe thats becos for nothing , boredom , loneliness and everything other insignificant things , I will start dialling yr no. Thanks for teaching me math and helping me in every way you could . I like you , yr personality and for being who you always to be . Courageous enough , determined than ever and being v nice to me . I'm sorry but I don't want to marry not now but I will witness you getting married and all about yr grandchildren . You better call me after Os , loves so much '
' Hi you , you touched me most when I read yr small little piggy note . I don't mind a name ' Dps ' from you , I didn't regret tearing , getting pinched , doing yr Art work at all . I treasured the sec 2 times w you so much . We shared a lot of memories tgt , mostly all the good ones . Even till death I will not forget you , I will not forget moments and times I've spent weeping and worrying about you . You and yr experiences have taught me a lot and that allow me to grow to be less dependant on you and more independant in myself . Sec 2 was a whole lot of fun and laughter w you . Even till now I can still remember some of the things you said to me . Those words will never leave me . I remembered you said my hug gives you strength and no matter how much you try to hide it , you cannot camouflage in front of me cos somehow I will be able to 'decode' it and read you . Previously I will know everything about you , how you suppress everything or trying yr best to be happy , trying so hard to not let me worry and conceal all yr unhappiness by blasting the music in yr ears . I remembered how we used to scribble on each other's arm , legs and everywhere else . Getting into serious trouble for that also and remember you drew a girl's face on my leg ? All the memories , somehow I can never forget . '
A part of me
One of those nights.
7:11 AM
