Saturday, October 3, 2009
Anguish
I just wasted two hours on facebk which I should be studying . I never like it but I think I better start liking it . My mum's not at home she went to pray for my grandpa , my father is out w my bro and my sis to the library while I'm at home , dreaming stoning waiting for every sec to pass and then my heart will seemed to skip a beat . I woke up at 7 today , draft my own time table filled w lots of encouragement like 'keep going' 'yes , that is the way to go' 'never say no' 'nothing is impossible' . But I just realised its me who's writing it and its also me who is going to receive it. I thank my mum for getting bbq chicken cos I haven't eat it since ... So I studied a little for paper one ytd , just went for a test at 10 . Tuition was gd today , the best tuition ever cos there's no teaching at all once the clock strikes 10 I was chased outside to somewhere near the toilet it was freaking hot the chair's not a chair its a stool I can't lean back cos if not I will fall , and there I begin my essay . The question was write about an occasion which you made an impulsive decision which caused your closed ones suffering . I was stuck but I begin to write , I ended off quite suckily but what to do ? Hehe , nevermind . Somehow I feel relieved after this paper , went back home straight after and here I am now blogging . Soon , I guess I'm going to take my social studies bk and then start to read and memorise I'm going two by two , means two chaps and then I take a break . If I completed all 6 , I will then attend Ss mocks if not I won't turn up . Hehe , ok so that's all for now I hope to complete my work today !
And there , they all watched . Some gasped in horror , some had an impish grin on their faces and others just want to see a good show. She knew that it was not her choice , she had no say , she had no choice , but she cannot regret . There was no room for it except to win , to walk down this road slowly , painfully but she has to win . She was aware of the shattered glass laid by all , she knew they were at the other side eyeing on her misfortune , she knew . Breathing in , she took a small step . Baby steps they thought , she was afraid . Yes she was , but baby steps were also steps . She smiled .
When it comes , what shall I do ?
One of those nights.
10:43 PM
