Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Torn
I've been out ever since , or rather even if I stayed home my mind will be out too . I don't know how to deal w this and somehow I think I've alr gave up gave up on my studies gave up on love gave up of hoping you'll come back to me. I'm mentally drained and I'm just v tired I've this urge to sleep non-stop and to probably stop time cos I don't ever want to sit for my olevels . All my dreams are shattered , like as if dreams ever come true. I'm too sick to continue this journey I'll probably end it by myself . I wanted to believe so much in you in me and in everyone's hope and aspirations for me but I can't I can't . I'm still feeling suffocated I still want to see you more than anything other thing I still have so much to say to you I still don't want you to leave . Ok enough I'm stopping this .
Ok , let's talk about today . Today was cool it was ok or at least better I was out w Maureen right after my damn eng test met her in cityhall and damn I've this craving for Ice-cream and so we were walking around cityhall , bugis and other places . Ok but I mean it was fun cos we end up talking about the past and of cos gossiping about other people are still the best ! HAHAHAHA ( omg I sound super bitchy plus mean but I'm honest ) HAHAHAHA ok whatever and so we planned to study but it totally failed cos we ended up eating , eating and buying gifts so we're officially freaking broke to the max HAHAHAAHA you can't blame us seriously we only brought like what 15 and 10 bucks respectively . But I was v happy cos its my second time being early and I'm going to keep up the good work !!!! : > wl eh I think I sound freaking lame to the max ok . Ok whatever it is , we really had a lot of fun like how someone wants a freaking L superman tee-shirt for dance ????? She's weird seriously , and thank God in the end she didn't buy it PHEW . So we bought our teacher's day present , kristy's present and then we went to the mrt station to take some photos I can't really put it up cos its taken by my phone and I've lost the damn cable so yeah . C you soon tmr maur , hope you get well !!!
That's why you go away , that's why now I feel empty
One of those nights.
6:28 AM
