Saturday, August 22, 2009
Shattered
I'm sorry I didn't really complete my post ytd . I just want to start on another new post cos Idk why and don't ask me why . But I'll still continue to blog about ytd and everything else . However I've a lot of things to complete / do today . My mum has asked me to visit my grandfather today , I don't really like visiting people in the hospital because of a lot of bad experiences what more I'm going alone . I think I'll probably wait for my sister to go w me tgt tmr or smt . I just had my prelims as in its finally over , but there's still mock and olevels. It's really fast , really . Just like what Mr Pat Ng said , blink yr eyes a few more times and olevels is here . I know it is alr here but somehow right now I feel so weak in all my subjects , seemed as if I'm not prepared . I mean I know I'm not smart alr , plus I'm not even hardworking so yeah sometimes I don't really think I deserve a good grade or a high score . But whatever it is , I'm still going to work hard for everything . Because if I don't I know I'll regret it real bad . And I so don't want to , I mean the feeling sucks esp when I'm a person who really believes in how I feel towards everything . Suddenly , I thought of that stinky taxi-driver , I hate it when people doubt my intelligence or I mean whatever it is , he thinks he's so smart , snorty ass high and mighty what shit when I'm sorry to say this but you're just a taxi-driver . I know what's service and what's not . So just shut up when I ask you to and just shut up pls . Omg , I can't stand it when I'm in the taxi and my cramps are freaking pain and he just talk all day long . It really drives me insane crazy and I almost lose my cool again ok . Anw forget about him , I'm going to meet sofea and val today but I'm a little afraid that Idk like what happened ytd this is really pms ok I really did try but I can't help it if my cramps , mood and a lot of other factors are all like mixed tgt and the end products = negative . And that's why I'm sorry about esp to the clique . I know that not my entire clique will be reading this because some of them don't even have access to my blog but whatever it is I wanted to actually msg yguys I felt really bad about my attitude and behaviour ytd but in the end I didn't and that's because I don't know what to say as in I didn't want to text a sorry msg to all of yguys to make me to feel better so I decided to leave it , leave this guilt and whatever it is with me till my bday is over cos I really deserve it . I know its very obvious when I'm happy , excited , upset , angry , pissed annoyed or whatever it is and I know yguys actually can tell that I'm not reallly ... Idk what's that word , probably enjoying myself or smt but I really did as in I couldn't really show it out cos I'm feeling uncomfortable with myself , weather and its really not yr fault . I was feeling really touched by everything and I'm even more apologetic towards roanna and stacy cause they were the organisers and just because I was slightly early and they were late so I got angry and all . Sorry , I didn't know that yguys were alr at Botanical Garden and rushing back to town to pick me up . I'm sorry , even though I know its not an excuse but I rarely am like this really . Aiya I'm damn sick of everything but I was really happy ytd . I love the bday shades , the crown I love the shades the best ok I love the black bangle the most I love the birthday box I love the food so damn much I love it I love the chicken the beehoon ( Keke sounds like Jihoo) I love the fishballs so much I love the board I love and appreciate ALL the hard work and effort yguys put in , like how adeline dress how yguys woke up really early to prepare all the food , how yguys brought the food to the botanical gardens how yguys even bother to create my 'tea party' how yguys still came even for awhile when yall have to rush for tuition , thankyou really . And thankyou sofea , I love the bday cards ever cos its made by you and only you and I'm really touched , thanks for coming to meet me in town ytd it was really a surprise and I love you even more for that . I really don't know why am I saying this but its rare so sofea you better copy and paste it in our ' burn ' book . HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA WHERE IS OUR BURN BOOK LAH BITCH HAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA . I love my clique's presence , I love to be the 'leader' of the clique , I love my special perfect 10 cos we're all perfect !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like how stacy's really hardworking and neat and organise , how roanna is always looking pretty and generous , how daphne gan is always nice and turning up for whatever event , how daphne ng always encourage me and listen to all my rantings and going swimming w me ( i love swimming w you ) , how adeline is always so nice to everyone and really sweet eg she would make all of us things for valentine's day or christmas , how fay will always be so helpful eg encouraging me to not give up in math to help me with whatever math question i've , how delores always look so cute so adorable so sweet just like a bear and I always want a cuddle from her , how natusmi and megumi are one of us , contributing whatever they can / have to the clique . Lastly , I really love the clique . Ok anw tea party was awesome the presents were awesome too. If not for my cramps ytd night I would have called people up to chat and count down ok , but its ok anw I'm 16 now !!!!!!!!! Cooliozxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxxzxzxzxzxx O and thankyou everyone for their bday wishes and text msges , I replied everyone but it was kind of late : < Anw HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADRIENNA ! I LOVE YOU ( kekekeke this sounds retarded ) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA but they always say that I mean its always happy birthday and a I love you .
The Perfect Company
One of those nights.
7:18 PM
