Saturday, August 8, 2009
My dreams will wait for me
Happy Bday , Singapore ! I woke up at 8 plus today , remembering its my country's bday today . Its not usual for me to do the things I'm doing right now , which is logging in youtube and playing the song kit chan's singing - Home . Also , I've been reading the newspaper . I think its smt like 44 things why you should love S'pore . When I was reading the papers , looking at different videos on youtube right now , I question myself : Do I really love my country ? And I realised I think I do . I mean even though I always lament or complain about the government , the education system and how Singporeans are so kiasu , so unfriendly so annoying but I'm after all a Singporean . Its not as if I didn't place tissues in any kopitiam or coffee shop so as to reserve my space , its not as if I didn't cut the queue before , ok I only do it when I'm really desperate ok ( HAHAHA ) But still , I guess that's actually why I love Singapore . I like it how we talk in Singlish , how we have different funny names like ' WALAO EH , SO KAPO ' and not forgetting all our ' AIYA DONT KNOW LAH ' I mean isn't it cool , its not proper english but so what its a language which bond us together , this could even be a common language common thing for us . I think my favourite national day song is still ' Where I belong ' by tanya chua , the others are seriously idk i don't want to say its sucky but yeah. And actually I would want to ask my friends what do they like about S'pore . I'm really curious about sofea's ans , she would probably say 'AIYA' and that's it . Roanna would say ' the food ' actualy I'm quite sure its the food . So yeah , this's a short msg to show my dedication , commitment and all the other values to Spore - by watching some videos and singing it all by myself infront of the pathetic laptop where my mum and sis thinks i'm probably mad .
I was given a task to complete , to write an essay . And the title is - Home . WHOA , I really have no idea how to even begin , I mean come on its not easy to write the topic Home . But I guess even though we have different definitions of home , we know that home is somewhere where we'll feel at ease or to know that's a place we know where we actually belong . However sometimes I do feel out of place , even though I'm in Spore . One such place is : Bugis street . I totally don't feel as if i'm in spore , probably some kind of foreign land . Don't ask me why its just the feeling . That's why I conclude sometimes I'm really weird , I mean sometimes . Maybe its due to the fact which I actually trust my feelings more than any other things . I know this about myself and yeah I guess its weird but friends who really stick w me are always based on my feelings . Wait , i guess that's really vague and complicated . What I meant simply is I make friends or do smt weird and unexplainable due to how I feel and it always depends on my mood . Like how I was so frank and honest towards roanna , showing off my idk-anything-you-want attitude , I bet she probably got a shock of her life. Yeah , people who don't know me probably think ew i'm a weirdo . People who know me will know this is really me so they'll just leave me alone . On the other hand , feelings are so weird and when sometimes you lose control of how you actually feel or you don't even know how you're feeling anymore , that is the time when you're officially lost . And then you'll again need a light to guide you through yr period of darkness HAHAHAHA sofee will surely laugh at this , trust me .
Ok , happy bday Singapore !
One of those nights.
7:26 PM
