Wednesday, August 5, 2009
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Yeah you're back on the same spot
I really dk what am I doing right now . Everyone's studying and mugging for prelims and I'm gluing my big fat ass on the chair , blogging . I decided to blog everyday now because Idk after olevels its goanna be so cool just looking back on all the i'm-so-stressed posts HAHAHAHA I swear i'll definately laugh . Ok , today I went to school , there were so many absentees ok , no serious ( but like as if I care anw) Yeah roanna and I were laughing at someone in our class who wrote on the board 'we need a bigger board to write all the names of the absentees' Its so dumb , class was seriously boring it was a total waste of my freaking time . I couls speak but it was still pain . Now's better everytime when I sleep it seemed to be magic . I'm not going to eat anymore pills or whatsoever because its so not helping . Lets take today as an eg . My stomach was still pain like crap , I need to shit damn badly and my stomach swell like a pigass when I haven't even taken my lunch and all I've eaten today is porridge . I mean look , it doesn't make sense at all. That's why I'm still sticking to my self-medicate , self-heal kind of concept . Till now , my tummy still hurts.
But I mean school was at least ok cause there's daphne and roanna . Yeah yeah I know I haven't been turning up for school but from now onwards , I'm not goanna skip anymore . Mr lau was saying ' Eh you all take turns one ah ' and ' Pls , do not skip my math class , ok , if you skip my math class then who is going to teach you . Its not some kind of humanities subject or whatever which you could sit down , memorise and study for one day . ' Immediately after I hear that , I totally swtich my mode to the ok , I got it . I mean I'm not trying to be mean here and I'm not trying to say this to any teacher or whatever but yeah c'mon I've a million teachers teaching me since the day I was born . And they tell me the same , xact old thing . They always say how important their subject is and how much effort we should put into that particular subject. Eng , we can't afford to fail it . Math , if we don't pass we can't even get into poly , so let's not talk about JC . Humanities , its the easiest subject to score , somethings are just common sense . And I forgot to say I totally don't have common sense. Chinese , its our mother tongue we've been studying and learning that since we were as young as Idk when we're born ? Science ( Chem ) - Yeah , D.L will tell you how much this subject means to her . In conclusion , why don't they just say that ALL the subjects are important and we must score but their subject which they're teaching are the MOST important cause they're teaching it ? Yeah whatever it is , that's why I choose to ignore . I mean I'm not dumb , I know what they mean but I don't intend to give myself uneccessary toruble , stress or headache. So I'm just going to leave it . I'm probably even intending to actually think that I'm just going to put in my best efort for olevels , whatever results I get its not important because I've done my best . Bullshit , I'm probably going to get a F9 for all my subjects and cry all day long .
So , during CME roanna and daphne were talking about 22 Aug . Sounds stupid yeah but they were talking about it . Roanna started it first , in her dude's tone she said ' Er daphne , I think 22aug ah we planning clique outing right ' I was really xcited and happy but sadly they didn't include me in this outing , they said what 22 Aug is they day they're going to kick the leader out of the clique. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA I swear people who don't know anything will probably find this dumb but whatever . So I plannned a draft and submit to both of them and got rejected . And all I've wrote is just a mini tea party, kbox and buffet ( seoul garden) ! I mean since no one's planning anything for myself I better love myself and treat myself better , I'll celebrate my existance and presence by myself. I was thinking worst come to worst , I'll just get a small mini cake , bring it back home or just get my ass into someone's house and celebrate it together. I'll probably get those photo cakes , those kind which you can give them yr photo so they can put it on the cake kind. Wow , I'll choose my best edited pix then HAHAHAHA . I promise on that day even though how pathetic it is I won't cry. I always like to plan and wish for something on my bday so people can grant me . And on that particular year I wished for sofee , delores , valencia to go escape w me to play . They just left it hanging there ( Thx guys !!!! Really do love yguys ) . Next year , I received a lot of presents but ater school no one could meet me to celebrate or spend my day w me . This year , I just wished to see the people in my life on that day . This includes val , sofea , my entire clique , kris , june , maur etc etc . And plus , I wished J'son will not give me any chem test pls omg HAHAHAHA if not I'm so not going to turn up .
Closed yr eyes to see what you've been wishing all along
Open yr eyes and realise that everything's just a dream
One of those nights.
3:16 AM
