Tuesday, July 7, 2009
I could not xplain this feeling , I could not
Sometimes , I guess life's really unfair . I have always wanted to believe in you , but somehow I can't . I feel miserable at times because of this cause I try so hard to feel yr presence but somehow I always failed. So maybe I'm giving it up .
Yknow I hate it when I always say yeah I'll have the courage and yeah strive on .. and the next damn moment I really hate how things are and I'll just say AIYA I can't be bothered and I'm giving up on everything . Yeah that's me , I guess .
A lot of stuffs happened recently , I wanna blog them but idk some are really unhappy moments . I mean I really dislike it when someone .... Whatever it is anw , its last time and its over . I can't forget it but I'll never be able to trust yeah . Ok so screw tom yam I'm having damn tummy ache now screw it . Today's so freakin fucked up , it started off w my damn contacts . Freak ok , I was rushing like mad , I didn't even have the time to bathe ok , and then when i 'pop' (check out the word pop) my right contacts into my eye freakin successful but when i was washing the left contacts screw it , it tear . OMGGGGGGGGGGGG , and I totally forgot to bring my pe tee shirt yeah and the freaking fact which I gained two damn it kg omg yknow I still can't believe it . After the whole entire damn thing , I dragged samatha ng to weigh w me again . I really can't believe it , its total rubbish . O yeah and my height's so disappointing , screw everything . Not forgetting the fact I ate tom yam and now I'm having a freakin tummy ache and diarrhoe , I can't wait for tmr to come . No , honestly .
I think life's really scary. Sometimes , I really do believe in fate . I can't help it , I chose not to but sometimes its just so right smack into yr face and you really do have no choice. So I ask myself this question umpteen times what kind of life is my life ? Idk , till now . But I'm really sick and tired of everything , don't you feel its really tiring and boring . When I'm a toddler , I was so xcited about life as I would get to know more stuffs , learn more things and all , I can't wait to grow up . And now , I'm feeling queasy and sick of growing up . Its tormenting . I mean it depends on how you seeing but yeah . Recently , someone asked me this question and I went blank . He said ' Why are you like this ? ' I didn't know what to say xcept ' Idk , maybe its just me . ' Okie , I feel as if this thing is really stupid I wanna do up my hw so gdbye
One of those nights.
7:06 AM
