Saturday, May 9, 2009
I swear sometimes I get so fucking annoyed , I really dk what to do
I guess I'm really hot-tempered , cause I know I would really get uptight if I'm so pissed off.
Just like what happen today , its not the first time though but I really feel so disgusted
I hate it when I'm asleep nowadays and some shithell would wake me up ( I seriously don't care if its on purpose or not ) I'm not a light-sleeper , so if you really woke me up , you must be annoying-ly loud and yeah I would be mad . So my father was vacuuming the entire house today , until he opened my damn door w the stupid set of keys and vacum my room. I mean i'm not xaggerating it , but come on , its V.A.C.U.M . It would be so freaking loud , plus I woke up so early for damn MSND plus rush to HOC. So I screamed real loud , he got so annoyed and scolded me. Next is my bro , he's annoying me like crazy.
I think its pms , no seriously . I'm always like this at this certain point of the month , I get annoyed so easily. This started since like idk , thurs or wed till now. I've been screaming at different people. So yeah , its either beware or I'm sorry. I'll try to control this , but i'm feeling pms . I shouted at amanda , J , ALL OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS , a guy who Idk in my tuition cause he's so annoying and yeah. I'm sorry ..................
Anw , I can't distinguish noice and peace , somehow . I mean its hard for me to xplain this but I would really like to say sometimes when I really need some silence , I usually don't have that . And when I really am lonely and need someone to chat w , nobody would be free . That's why I say you are out to make me look like a fool.
I know I'm goanna do really badly for SA . I mean its like the entire world pratically thinks I study and mug a lot , or I'm hardworking and all . Ok , I declare now that I'm not studying and all . & you can say whatever yguys want , cause I don't care / bother . At this point of time , I've come to realise that this world could be really simple or complicated . Simple in the sense that everyone's mugging , studying and all for their future. Complicated becaue its like everyone's actually like keeping things from each other , doing stuffs against people's back and like doing nasty stuffs so people would not score higher than them . I mean one v good eg. is , telling yr friends you don't study at all and yr tests you can get so high scores and say omg I really never study . I mean that's plain dumb , but everyone's doing it now . So friends now are probably not friends , they're probably seen as competitors . Everyone wants to beat each other , everyone wants to score higher than each other , but have we ever thought about being contented ? J'son always teach me moral values , how people thinks and all . I mean he's great , he always tell me how cruel reality is and how people only look out and notice number one and who freaking cares about number two or three and so on ? I mean just ask yrself , do yknow who's the second astronaunt who land on Mars ? Omg , yknow when J'son asks me that question , my first reaction was , ' Who was the first ? ' HAHAHAHAHA but yeah besides that , I think yguys know what i'm goanna say . So yeah , this's probably life and harsh reality we've got to accept .
Also , I know I was really bothered about my appearances recently. I was really happy and glad after June tells me this story . & I think its so cool that I want to share it w everyone . E first person I share this story w is fea , and her immediate reaction was to laugh , WTH HAHAHAHA . So , on one particular day , there's this camel , a father and a son walking down this street . While walking , they suddenly met a group of people . And the people said ' Omg look , the father should let the son to sit on the camel ... The son's so young ... ' So , the father helped the son up to be seated on top of the camel . So , they continued their journey when they met the second group of people . They pointed to them and said ' Omg , how could the son do this ? The father's so old , the father should be resting on the camel ... ' And so , they xchanged places and the father's seated on the camel . Next , they met the thrid group of people . They said ' Poor camel , they should let the camel rest . ' So , the father went down and walked , thus three of them are walking . Next , they met thr fourth group of people . The people said ' So stupid , both of them should be riding on the camel ... ' And thus , they did so . So , the morale of the story is : No matter what you do , what you say or how much you try , people would still judge you. People would judge you still. People would still say things about you , people would still bitch about you . So why bother ? Just be yrself . So what if the girl sitting besides you has a really hot boyfriend ? So what if the girl is smarter , prettier and richer than you ? What matters most is whether we are happy . Ok , yeah I feel really touched by June . I mean its like I think she makes a lot of sense , and I love the story a lot .
I'm goanna try to be myself from now onwards
I'm goanna be happy
I'm goanna be contented w what I've
I would try not to be greedy
I would try not to be jealous
I would really try
Because , I'm thankful of everything I've right now
One of those nights.
3:02 AM
