Monday, March 16, 2009
K so today I feel that it was a good day however time passed really fast and one day of my precious M hols is gone gone gone . So I was really really early today , I really don't know whats happening to me but so far starting from sat I've been really early . Sat was a shit day ok , I saw the hour hand wrongly and rushed to HOC at like what one hour early . Arghhhhh , I hate to be early , but I detest waiting for people HAHAHAHA I'm so weird . Ok so I met the two dudes today , and I was really early . I bet they were really happy ok . Whatever it is , we trained all the way to yeah Changi ( daphne ng pls be glad ) and throughout the whole journey , I went ipoding all e way , leaving the two dudes to rock e train HAHAAHAHAHAHA . However , they kept annoying me ! Anw so reached Changi , camwhored like nobody's business , played and talked . I've a confession to make : Mostly , we were gossiping like crazy ( and yknow who we were talking about ) HAHAHAHA . Then adeline came and we started to gossip again , pour out our woes or rather my woes , comforting each other and all . I like it a lot , I wonder if they like it too , its like bonding time ( ok I know that sounds lame ) . Yupp , then we went to meet daphne(s) to show her the video . I swear if i'm daphneng , I think I would be the happiest girl in the world , but maybe not because different people want different things , and after all this , people just want more , it will not stop though . Like how I think it is really sweet to have someone beside you 24/7 and to talk to you till the the next day and all , but I know suck things would probably never happen to me cause my life's like this . Idk , perhaps I'm always fated to be toyed by someone else , I kinda lose all my hopes and trust of depending on someone . I know I would rather rely on myself cause I don't want to get hurt ultimately , not again , and never . Guess that's probably how I feel , first time it hurts so badly that you really don't know what to do . Then you tell yrself you got to move on and all , but thats not easy because actions speak louder than words and once bitten twice shy ( HAHAHA WHAT'S W ME AND ALL THESE ) Then after a long period of time you tell yrself that ok I'm ready and try to fall in love and all . Nect thing yknow , you fall so deep till you never can imagine and got hurt . So now I've become smarter , I would not let anyone hurt me again . Idk what intention you've , but just so yknow , I vowed infront of sofea and only sofea knows this , and I'll stick w it , even that means hurting you . I told you , I'm going to learn to become more selfish and thick-skinned . Thats one step to make myself stronger . K , so why did I talk about that anw , HAHAHAHA . So , yeah I hope daphneng did enjoy this today ! Life's like this , isn't it ?
I really think I need / want more things
Things like having a really good friend
Pathetic , miss sal a lot .
Thanks dude(s) and adeline for today , love .
One of those nights.
4:15 AM
