Thursday, January 22, 2009
I really want to thank a lot of people like Bbf , sofea , roanna , daphne G , stacy and those who care for me . I swear I really do miss maureen and valencia ( MSG ME ONCE YOU SEE THIS ) . I think I'm goanna change my url soon , I mean that depends also . I've been telling a lot of people my stupid addyaddieadrienna url , I bet everyone thinks its dumb stupid and childish . I mean that is so me right , I'm like this. Not only that , I'm possesive , selfish , jealous , stingy , disgusting , gross , ugly ... I must be really annoying and irritating too . Thats why some people can't stand me . Just like how I can't stand myself now either .
I feel as if i'm changing . I'm becomming for like last time . I'm doing a lot of stupid things to injure and hurt mysef . And like last time , I enjoy all those cause it totally tire me out so I wouldn't think about other stupid stuff. So , I borrowed R's watch today to wear cause I was dumb ytd , real dumb . I was really annoyed in the morning , I wished my parents understand how I'm feeling , but I doubt they'll cause yeah this year is olevel year , I ought to stay focus and not allow anything to distract my objective . I decided to lie to them I need to go back to school to run because of ... Not as if I like to lie , and I really feel mean lying to them but yknow if I don't , they'll fetch me to school and will take their own sweet time to get me to school . So i ran freaking 13 rounds , I seriously don't know whats wrong w me , the weather's really hot , I'm perspiring like crap , but somehow I don't wanna stop . I want to keep running so I could feel tired at the end of the day . Ran before assembly , during pe and recesss time . I never felt so cool running before ok .
I hate to cry , I really hate to cry cause I'll look damn ugly. I'm going to sleep for 2/3 hours again.
K i dont feel like blogging alr . Next time maybe .
One of those nights.
4:53 AM
