Thursday, January 15, 2009
I can't believe I'm in the mood of blogging . But oh well , lets start ... to blog . School's really boring and uninteresting . How I wish all teachers have sore throat on the same particular day , so we could really have some peace . K , I'm not exactly saying that they are contributing to noise pollution , I just feel that sometimes they ought to stop yeah , nagging . Like Idk Olevel is coming , like I can't feel the stress and all. Pls don't mention olevel infront of my face , I think I'll just tell you' Yeah yeah yeah' Shitz , I'm really v rude nowdays. So , today we had Pe and all. As usual , I didn't attend the morning run so I kinda promised them that if I don't turn up for morning run , I'll run 10 rounds by myself during recess . Oh yessssss , and I did run ten rounds , not forgetting pe we did 4 rounds . Total : 14 rounds . I know I shouldn't be complaining cause as a a member of track and field ................ K , this goes on and on . But I was hoping I could tire myself , stress myself so my brain would stop functioning , would stop bothering things which are unnecessary , stupid , pointless , futile and ridiculous .
Omg , did I tell you Crazyman is such a dumbbie today ? She scared me by a whole string of msges . And when I read all the msges together , I was like ' HUH , what's going on ? She send wrong msg ah ! ' And it turns out that she read my blog and thought I was talking about her cause I didn't paragraph out the part that wasn't meant to be hers . Sorryyyyyy , I was really supaaaaaaa tiredzx so try to understand k ! And I'll never ever say that of you cause like if I'm really annoyed w you , I'll tell you straight in yr face. I pratice honesty and being true to people who I love : >
Omg seriously , why do I sound so gross ?????
So its still the same old stupid thing that happens in school again . I have no idea what is happening or going on . As much as I try not to bother , you are always appearing out of nowhere . Its so
contradicting cause partly I wanna see how you are doing now , however I wish you could disappear from my sight forever . I wonder why are we like this now . What are we now ? I'm certain we are not friends , not even acquaintances . We are probably strangers now . I heard you are like this now , I heard you don't even reply
msges , I heard you only reply yr lover's
msges , I heard all these stuffs and got so fucked up . Should I be really glad that you actually reply my
msges ? Should I be really pleased that
i'm still able to see you in school ? I don't feel glad at all , cause I know this is so not you at all. 3 years have passed really quickly , I knew you since the first year , you were not like this at all. You changed so much , so much that
i'm afraid and scared to know who you really are now . I feel like telling you I'm really tired , I'm really tired of trying so hard . Can I break the promise I made to you ? I don't want to be there for you forever , I know it will only hurt me. I would rather
fulfil this promise to the previous you , really . Oh I really do miss the previous you . You were so sweet , so caring , so loving . I've no idea what happened to you , I'm really sorry if I actually did cause you to be like this . I don't feel like blogging
alr . I'm still hoping
tmr will be a better day .
We'll never get the chance to be okay
One of those nights.
2:31 AM
