Sunday, September 7, 2008
K , I'm actually not supposed to blog today cause I need to complete all my fucking homework now. I'm so deprived of my sleep , really am . I haven't been sleeping properly for the past one week and my eyes are freaking pain .
Anw , I'm actually blogging for my dearest
cuzzie , Melina
Poon .
I know , life is so uncertain . One day he gives you yr precious moment , the other minute he just snatched away yr most beloved person . I can no longer tell when
thats happening . I can no longer figure it out why is the actual reason to him doing all that . Making us feel happy and then crying and moaning over someone . Perhaps I'm just too young and ignorant , perhaps I should have think deeper , perhaps there are some benefits to it . I don't seemed to care
anw . Its a torture . Its tormenting us as well as them . I could never forget how she nearly fainted , I could never forget how he cried non-stop hugging you and tell you everything would be alright . I could never forget how my grandparents react seeing this . I could never understand the loss of a kin , the closet kin . I could never forget the scene . I could never forget today . It was horrid . People crying when they came to the place . I'm so tired . My eyes are
literally killing it . I didn't sleep last night as I was busy watching video to keep myself awake . K enough about rubbish stuffs .
Anw , it was a great time as I
havent been talking to ALL my
cuzzies for a really long time . I managed to talk to Ricky , Rex ,
Sheleen (
Gors &
Jies)
Aiya , & a lot of others
lah . It was fun chatting w them .
I have no idea why I feel so fucked up and messed up now . I feel so useless to my
cuzzie cause basically I cried more than her . & I don't think I've done enough for her to make her feel better . I know I
shouldnt , I tried to control but somehow tears just can't stop . I feel so heartbroken when I see my grandparents reacting like this as well as all the elderly . This thing is just so
heart wrenching . & I'm glad that everything is over . This marks a new beginning , a new life ahead . However , you will not be forgotten , my dearest uncle . You'll always be in our memory . Thanks , for always doting us . Thanks for being a great uncle . Thanks for bringing us to Japan , that was the best memory w you ever . You , a great father , husband and an uncle . I hope , whenever you'll be now , you'll be forever blessed and happy.
Treasure one , cherish them , love them , do not take them for granted .
Have you done enough for them ?
I hate false pretence and false smiles .
& basically, these are fake .
Who would smile and laugh at that moment .
I was just trying my v best to liven up the atmosphere .
I was just trying my best to make my
cuzzie smile and laugh .
This part was over .
Everything would be over now .
Its never a right time to say goodbye . Zhu ,
You don't need to ever feel bad that you are taking up my entire holiday k .
I don't mind not going anywhere as well as shopping just for you .
We are
cuzzies , & plus you mean freaking a lot to
ying ying jie jie .
Betcha you are so glad when you see this ,
HAHA .
Yeah
lah ,
Miezxzx lurbzxzx euzxzxz . You better not throw away the princess diary k , if not K.M.A .
Yknow through this , I realised a lot of things .
Some people would just be there for you when you need them .
And I need to thank these people .
J , R , D .
Esp J . Thanks , really .
I swear I hate to cry ,
I swear I even hate it when a large group of people is staring at you when you cry .
DANCE FLOOR .
One of those nights.
7:17 AM
