Monday, September 29, 2008
I shouldn't be blogging , I should be resting and studying as I've absolutely no time for that . But
anw , I don't know why am I blogging . Oh , whatever . School was bad , just as I thought . I'm stupid enough to let my emotions took control .
I do miss you , I don't know why
everytime when I lose someone , I'll be so terrible . Is it because I didn't cherish you , is it because I took yr presence for granted , is it because I thought you would always be there for me and not leave me alone ? Yes , I think so . I'm always like this , and I don't know why . I still remember the time when you gave me $20 to buy my purple soft toy dog , it was yr first pressie to me because I did really well for my exams .
Frankly , I'm not in any mood to study . I don't have ample time to study , I'm so in need of rest , and I feel so messed up and terrible . How am I supposed to study for the upcoming exams .
But I know it should not let this affect my exams . This is the time I should show her my capability , this is the time where I should thank her for everything that she has done for me.
Part of me really want to concentrate , stay focus and do well for my exams . But its just seemed so hard to do that .
And I'm so sorry to all those people who asked me what's wrong w me today and whether I'm alright or not . I really appreciate yr concern , but
pls do not worry for me as exams are round the corner , I would really wish all of you guys to so well . That was why I refused to tell anyone anything . And it is also because , I don't know how to . Basically , I can't really control my emotions . And
i'm afraid if I say that , I would cry again . But thanks for all those
msges , cards and everything . I know I can do this alone , I know I can pull myself back together again , I know , I'm able to do this .
Time is the best medicine ever ;
I need a lot of time alone ;
& I need you by my side , where are you ?
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
K , I jumbled up the diff sentences in the lyrics together .
One of those nights.
7:58 AM
