Monday, September 15, 2008
I don't know why , but I feel so fucked up recently that I kept crying . I feel the pressure and stress to complete all my revision . & I bet everyone is feeling the same way too . I hate to rush things out esp when I absolutely don't even have time for myself . SA is coming up in just a few weeks time , I'm so scared that my revision is not complete or something . I'm so afraid I would screw up my SA , just like how I did screw up my SPA Bio today .
Sometimes , I'm so sick and tired of this . And I wonder if I kept persevering , will my dreams ever
goanna come true ? If it is , how long more does it takes ?
Thats because I'm losing it all , I'm losing majority of my patience to wait and persevere once more .
I think I was really annoying today cause I totally did badly for the SPA . As in my tabulated results were all wrong , & I kept telling myself that I would not even pass . Friends kept telling me otherwise , but I kept insisting on my way . I know that I rather get myself prepared if I fail cause I don't want to suddenly know that I fail , I would not be able to accept it . I know you must be thinking its so
stupid of me to think of such stuffs right , but yeah ,
Idk why too . I don't get it why do I feel so 'heavy' when I did everything for SPA Bio differently . & that is counted for Prelims .
I kept thinking about it and
whenever I think how I screwed it up , I would want to cry .
I know I haven't been studying or revising for the past few weeks . I feel so guilty whenever . I really have no idea how to study for Bio and
Amath and
Emath . I really feel like giving up .
Pls people , tell me to not give up .
One of those nights.
8:08 AM
