Sunday, August 3, 2008
Friends come and go . And why am I bothering about this and being affected by this matter , when I guess all of you don't kinda seemed to bother much . I feel like an asshole when I can't let go of this , just like that . I kept holding on , I kept being dependent on you . And when you ask me to let you go now , How could I ? I know I'm a coward right from the start , avoiding to face up to reality is my forte . I hate it when you give me something , and when I held it so close and you just force me to give it up . I don't want to keep convincing myself that this would be over soon , its just only for this period of time I would feel awful . I don't wish to tell myself that everything is alright , though I know its not . I dislike deceiving myself , it takes me alot of courage to do that . I don't want to stress myself w large amount of work , trgs , tuitions and other stuffs just to make me not think about this matter. I hate , to put on false smiles . But yknow what , I don't think anyone will bother . I'm suffocating , can't ysee ?
K , today was like kinda busy . I had curlls from morning 8 to 5.30 . And in between , I had to go to tuition for two hours . Kinda tiring though , but yeah . So my dad was my chauffeur today . I really want a servant and a chauffeur everyday in my life , can save so much time . So Curlls was really interesting and helpful today , I made different new friends today . We did the Mosaic painting , and guess what , group 15 was the second best group ! I will use that black cup k !!!! Group 15 is so hawt. HAHA , curlls always allow me to realise alot of meaningful stuff , really enriching . Sometimes , I looked at them and compare myself to them , ain't I so much luckier ? And why am I so greedy ? Why do I still want more ? I smile whenever I see them being so contented w their lives , being able to read and write seemed to be a blessing to them . And to most of us , we don't really treasure it well . I feel so embarrassed and ashamed . K anw , I was being real annoying to most of the group 15 members today . Eg. Doromon & alot others . Sorry if I annoy anyone of you guys k . Cause I sing and talk so much that I could hardly speak properly . It was fun though , I love curlls .
P.S ( I don't check after typing my post , and I don't edit , I don't have time , I need to study) HAHAHA . K byeeeeeeee .
Oh , & thankyou Jolene Errrrrr , & Roanna Soonnnnnn .
One of those nights.
4:17 AM
