Saturday, July 7, 2007
Spot onnnnn, weekends suck.
Esp Saturday, I could just cry till I die.
Rushed to wake up at 9, and hurry finish up Raymond's wirk. But I needed help. So I approach J.T and Ariel:D And they were super cool smart, thanks aloooooooottttttttttttttttttt!
K , I didn't want to go back home by the Bugis way, so I took the City Hall way back home. And greattttt, yknow I was stuck at some Shopping Centre for about half an hour. I didn't know where I was, and it has sooo many floors that I had to go and search for a signboard that named ' MRT'.
I think I need to be independant because sooner or later, I could only depend all on myself. Last time, I dont even need to look at signboard, I would just keep talking to her. And she would know where to go, she would even make sure that I cross the roads properly and all. And now, when she's gone, I feel empty and lost. Where's are you, Pearlyn:( I hate not see-ing you in tuition, and I hate us not meeting as early as possible to rush through Raymond's work together, and to camwhores during train rides, and to play those 'Run-In and Run-Out' games in the mrt train, and to hear each other's rantings and all. Where are you! And we always have no time to spend with each other:( I dont like this at all. Imy badly:( .
I think its on Friday, when Ng yi and I were outside the staff room, cause we were waiting for Ms Koh to come out. And before that, we saw two sec ones, jumping about while asking Ms Koh a question. And I dont know what makes Ng yi to say this : Last time Adrienna used to be like that. I think she said something like that, I'm not too sure. But yeah, I think I too feel a change. Cool, but I dont like this at all. School seemed to be a playground for everyone, except for pathetic loners. And I think I fall to the range of the latter. Thats perfectly great:D Hip Hip Hoorayyyy:D And when there's smiles on everyone's faces in the playground, I began to find 'everyone' irritating and starts to hate this whole playground. Because I'm jealous.
K, shit. I'm like talking one whole f-ing big junk now. Damn ass, great, my nationals are going to be on monday. And I'm so downright scared:(
When I apologise, you didn't say anything except to ask me if I knew why am I apologising for, and ask me not to get cheesy and emo. If you only knew why I'm acting this way:(
You once allow me to own everything, And now, you are taking everything away from me.
I lick my wounds, but I can't ever see them getting better.
Editied:
There's a difference between Crying and Tearing.
I really wanted to cry , But I can only tear.
And when you tear, make sure you goes to somewhere that no one else sees you,
Cause I hate people staring at me.
I wish to cry till I die.
I would like to hear someone who will speak non-stop. And fill my emptiness with her voice.
One of those nights.
12:33 AM
