Monday, December 7, 2009
Dearest you ,
Happy Bday and I love you .
One of those nights.
6:54 AM
Friday, December 4, 2009
I'm sorry
I'm still sorry
And I'll still be sorry for the rest of my life to you
These words , I don't know how to say them out
But silently in my heart , I'm praying you're doing fine
One of those nights.
6:17 AM
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Kill
Ok , life has been a normal routine for me . I really don't feel like blogging .
Isn't it how I wanted things to be ?
One of those nights.
8:08 AM
Monday, November 30, 2009
Happy Bday , V !
Luvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
One of those nights.
8:29 AM
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Release
I think I'm back to my blogging 'spirit' and I've decided to include one more reader into my blog . I'm not going to say names , but anw welcome you ! Hehe , I think my blog will truly reflect what kind of person I really am , so yeah just read on to find out more . I haven't been talking much lately at home and I hate it . Sometimes I question myself what's the true meaning of home . I'm not that ass-dumb to not realise how lucky I've been but its just this tingling feeling I mean like I know i'm lazy and messy but I'm trying my best ok maybe not v best but still trying to change . I'm not a saint , I do have flaws and all so pls give me time . So the thing is since ytd onwards my mum and I fought , its I think our first serious one becos she has not come towards me to talk to me first like what she has always done . I'm not talking to her too , simply becos I don't think I'm wrong and damn I hate to admit this but I want my so-called pride . She's being unreasonable here and I don't think I should give in . Also we had a mini argument just like just saying what she says she's v v v v v v v v ( she really did say very a lot of times ) sad that I'm like ____ for v's bday and I never ____ for anyone or her before . Damn v , I hope you read this soon and feel honoured ok seriously . I feel like crying now whenever she glared and stared at me as if i'm some kind of freak but I held my tears back as usual and quesioned her ' What else do you want from me ? ' Its hurting me so crazily becos she's my mum but I guess she still think I'm a kid who's just throwing tantrums . I'm just going to see how long this kind of situation and conversation would last .
Enough about my mother becos its runining my whole entire mood . I've joined danceeeeeeeeee today ! I need to apologise to maureen for being late becos of my mother again and I'm so glad to dance again . It was awesome , I was surprised to c some of my school mates there also hehehehe ! Anw ok I've to do up v's bday present ! Ps I'm trying to hit my own target of finishing new moon in 1 day's time !!!!!!!!!!! :> Wish me luck hehe
I thought it was over , but why does my heart still ache ?
One of those nights.
7:03 AM
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Dehydrated
Lately I feel that I haven't been myself . Also I've lost the interest to blog and I wonder how . I'm so tired but I still have to complete the stuffs in which I'm supposed to do . This project's deadline is on monday and I'm rather unlucky to have sofea isak as my ONLY team-mate. Aiya this is damn seriously damn ...
I fucking don't know why some girls can be so damn pretty and hot , damn .
I'm back to the same destination
One of those nights.
5:30 AM
Friday, November 27, 2009
I've been spending a lot of money recently . Now I can't wait for dance to start on sunday becos at least I've some kind of goal and aim to head towards to . I'm like screaming on my msn pm to ask sofea isak to come online . I've many things to start , do and complete . Some in which I've not even started . I don't know why I feel like as if I'm being cheated out of something in which I don't know again but I swear if you mess w me you're going to be v fucking sorry . I'm going to be v quiet tmr cos I know its going to suck like real bad . I miss hanging out w people like stacy , sofea and val . I haven't been out w them since a week and it sucks so bad I've so much to say . I just spent 6 bucks on bread I feel as if I'm wasting money , aiya why did I act cool freakkkk . I'm v scared this is karma again , I pray its not . And now I feel like i'm being lost again , lost in this world . But whatever it is , you can hate me to the core , talk behind my back , say about all the shit loads things about me but don't fucking meddle into my life cos you'll fucking regret it , I swear . Here are some pixs :
One of those nights.
7:45 AM
